Rhonda and I are enjoying serving at Crossroads Church in Douglasville. We are serving on the First Impressions team on Sunday evening. I am leading the interest group ministry and serving on the baptism team. I am grateful God has opend a door for us to serve Him and others. After River Ridge closed I had no idea what the future would hold for us. Greg and the staff at Crossroads welcomed and accepted us in a gracious way. Saying “goodbye” to a dream was and is hard. Crossroads has allowed us to grieve in a healthy way!

Rhonda and I are seeking God’s direction. Our vision is clear . . . the place is not. We are having a blast at Crossroads. Lives are being changed. People are getting saved and are growing in their faith. That is awesome. Still, I long to be back in full-time minstry. It’s been almost 7 months since River Ridge closed. I am asking God to reveal His will to me and Rhonda by the end of this month.

We are praying about joining Justin and helping him plant The Vinings Church in Cobb County. Over the next few weeks we will be meeting to discuss what my pastor role would be if we join the team. We share so much in common . . . vision, values, mission, etc. I believe in the need for a church focused on reaching people far from God in the Vining area. Here are the two things that I must wrestle with right now: money & passion.

If I join the Vinings team, I will have to raise my salary or have a job that will pay the bills (& give me freedom to do the work that needs to be done). Raising money scares me. I did not raise enough when I started River Ridge. I don’t know if I can do that. I don’t see how I can work full-time and make enough time to do my job at a new church start. I must wrestle though the money issue.

The other thing I must resolve in my heart is passion. I don’t know if it’s the money issue or my desire to be the main “leader” but I do not have a passion for the Vinings area. It’s not that I don’t believe a dynamic is needed there. One is needed. I have told Justin that I would not join his team just to be a pastor again. I would only join his team if I had a real passion or burden for the Vinings area. Using some old fashioned term . . . I am searching for a call from God.

If God has called, I have not heard the phone ring. Rhonda and I both want to be where God wants us to be. We long to be in a place where hundreds of lives are changed by the gospel of Jesus Christ. We are not interested in baby-sitting a bunch of self-centered Christians who are more interested in their traditions, buildings, and holy huddle than reaching people who are far from God!

So, until we hear God’s call we will continue to wait. Maybe I need a louder ringtone!